I know it sounds crazy. Totally crazy. Being a MOM of 8 sounds certifiable CRAZY! Right?
When I was growing up I thought I would only have one child as an adult. So I laugh often when I think….God, why did you give me 7?
In my first marriage, I had twins at the age of 28. About 2.5 years later, I had our third child. We were done; HIS shop was permanently closed. Well, fast forward a number of years, and a divorce and now a remarriage and I’ll be honest with you, I struggle GREATLY with the thought that Stephen and I will NEVER have our own children.
Stephen’s shop…closed, yet perhaps reversible. My shop? Different story. A few years ago, just PRIOR (ironic) to meeting Stephen, I had to have a pretty drastic surgery (we essentially had to fry my uterus) that complete prevents me from having any more children.
The desire to have another child is HUGE! I love being pregnant. I love the baby stage. I love, love, love 6 months to about 2 years. I love the smiles, the laughs, the little innocent personality that develops in front of my own eyes.
I look at friends baby pictures on Facebook and I just LONG for a baby. I see videos like this one and my heart aches to experience this stage once again!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RP4abiHdQpc&feature=player_embedded
Stephen says we need to look forward to our kids having kids. Um, I say…no thanks. Not ready for that! 🙂 I want MY OWN! LOL.
So, my reality is this….7 is enough. I LOVE our 7. I also know the Lord had a different plan and Stephen and I were never meant to have our own children. Our “plates” are full with 7 and the challenges are huge and days are long. But I’ll be honest with you, I think I will always be a little sad that after finding amazing love and a real partner in life with Stephen, that the two of us will never know what it’s like to have a child of our own.
Cuz shoot…..if we had a child of our own, that would be ONE REALLY TALL child!
MOM of 7 